What do you think about being alive, right here, right now?

I can understand your questioning and curiosity but it's something we all have to deal with. Thinking about it too much will make you go a bit crazy as you won't find an answer. But as to answer your question, I love it. It's wonderful. Living in the present is all that should matter as the present is all we can control. The past is gone and the future isn't here. Live in this moment right here.